“Everything started with terrible migraines, double and blurred images, I felt numbness on the right side of my body. Some doctors thought I had a stroke. Tingling in my legs and arms, tremors, loss of feeling in my hands… Everything was falling out of my hand. I was terribly angry at my body for doing this to me. Why do I lose control of my own body? Why can’t I function normally? Why can’t I drink water normally? Why does my glass fall out of my hands? Why do I fall in the middle of the street, I can’t walk, my legs fail? There were also problems with my speech. Making a sentence was an impossible mission. I once walked into a store and ”froze”. I don’t remember who I am or what I am was, nor what I was doing there. If someone had asked me my name, I wouldn’t have been able to answer”.
These are just some of the first symptoms that Ida Curovac felt on her skin in 2014, who got the autoimmune disease multiple sclerosis as her lifelong companion.
This 34-year-old girl from Sarajevo told her life story, the not-so-easy way of accepting the disease and her “different” self. Multiple Sclerosis created new and better version of Ida. As she tells, she realized that it was only now that she truly began to love life and understand its point.
“Life is a great treasure”, she told.
It’s the little things in life
“I always considered myself to be somehow different, that my ‘mission’ was different, and now I know what it is. I really want to help people, put a smile on their face, and in return just seethem happy”, says Ida, looking back:
”You run your whole life to get an education, make your parents proud. You run after a career, money and to “accomplish yourself, but you don’t realize that life is passing you by so easily”.
She began to appreciate “little things” such as walking, showering on her own, drying her hair, feeding herself, “feeling” her legs and arms and appreciating the grace when a person can sit and walk without being tired or in pain.
At the end of the conversation, she sent a message to all those suffering from multiple sclerosis. The most important thing, she emphasizes, is to surround yourself with positive people, seek the help of psychologists, family, friends, partner, never be alone and keep everything to yourself, N1 reports.
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